Reunion

Well my 10 yr class reunion did not go as well as I had hoped. I did get to see a few people that I wanted to see and that was great. BUT I also ended up getting into an argument with my husband. I am a lil shy and a lil insecure and my husband is about as outgoing as they come SO I had asked him to stay with me the whole night. I know maybe I am acting childish but he left me for just over 30 minutes without telling me where he had went. When he finally came back to the table he said he had to pee and I asked him if he could get me a drink first, he had the credit card after all. He didn't. We met back at the bar where he made it obvious I had pissed him off and he started to yell at me right there. I told him if he embarrassed me that night I would NOT go home with him. He didn't care. He went back outside and I followed after several minutes because I felt that I should try making him happy. I missed the rest of my reunion because he stayed outside and didn't care that I was missing everything. They did games, announced winners in a few contests and just had the reunion while I was outside missing it all. We were talking to one of my best friends but he is someone I have seen in the past 10 yrs. I wanted to catch up with people I don't see already. The thing that makes me mad even more is that the night before my reunion we hung out with my husbands friend and I acted the perfect wife. I was the DD, I ordered my husbands drinks for him, I laughed and talked when I was supposed to. He could not do that for me. He did order my drinks a few times the night of my reunion but I had to switch to soda early on because he refused to be the DD so I could not get drunk even if I wanted to. I guess I have 10 yrs to improve myself and get my life more where I want it and then in 10 more yrs I can hopefully be brave enough to go to the reunion by myself.

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I Write Like

By using the last blog post on here and the website http://www.iwl.me/ it says I write like David Foster Wallace... and the post before that one was listed as being like Dan Brown. I read an article about the website though so I know it is extremely inaccurate but kind of neat I guess.

Everything Gone Wrong

This summer has not been like it was suppose to be.

First off, I planned a vacation that for financial reasons we didn't get to take. I cried when I cancelled our reservations. It was going to be our first family vacation, our kids are 6, 8 and 16. We really needed that vacation.

So, as a way to cheer myself up a little I decided to get a pool. I think it was like 4 feet by 20 or something. It was not settling level so we drained it to clean it and fix the ground it was on. Of course, the very next day it storms really bad and breaks the pool. We had used it maybe 6 times and it had cost like $600. I think it is reasonable to say I am upset about that. The good news is that it is fixable if my husband orders the parts and puts it back together so if I'm lucky maybe I can swim in it next year. And maybe that's too harsh because some times my husband gets on the ball and does some amazing things but he is unpredictable. He could get the parts and fix my pool or he could play WOW all day on his days off, and that seems more likely, especially since a few of his days off are taken due to other events. By the way, I think the pool has been broken for 2-3 weeks.

Another issue has been scheduling conflicts. I had two reunions this summer and of course they are planned in the same month. I couldn't afford expenses to go to both so I had to miss my band reunion. Which I know, haha band nerd but so what, I loved band and I hate that I had to miss it. I already feel the tugs from regret. Sucks!

So, as of right now I plan on going to my 10 yr high school reunion in about 2 weeks. I am excited, kind of. I want to go but I am not the person I wanted to be 10 yrs ago and the closer the reunion gets the more I feel it. I am overweight for starters and in hs I was not fat, at all. I am a student, one semester down out of 4 yrs. I'm 27 and just now starting college. What can I say, life happened.

Plus I had jury duty for the first time last month. Lets just say the topic fit right in with my career choice as social worker. A horrifying experience.

So, pity party for Penny.

Church

I wish my husband would take us to church. I want so much to belong to a church family. I believe the Bible says it is the man's job to do so. Even if it is not my shyness keeps me from finding a church by myself. I keep telling myself that I will do it, it's crazy to wait for John since he is obviously not going to take us. Then I do something dumb like stay up till 4am on the computer and reading that I couldn't imagine getting up around 7 to get ready for church. We've lived in this area of the state for about 5 years and we've been to church twice. It was the same church both times and both times I did not like it. I just didn't feel called to that church. I've been to other churches in my life that at suited me one way or another but this church didn't seem to fit me at all. I want to feel Jesus while at church and I have just not either times I went to the local church. Maybe next Sunday I will finally have enough courage to take myself and my children to church. There is one close by that I would like to try. I guess we will see.

Melancholy

Melancholy is one of my favorite words.